~arghh!!!!! freaking jerks!!!!~
~this is like the second tyme some freaking ppl try to find fault with me~
~the worst part is, i have no idea who the freaking hell that freaking guy is~
~well, it's not my fault that he didn't see the AWAY sign~
~he must be freaking blind!!!~
~and he said "kalau taknak chat den offline ar!"~
~and how freaking rude is dat?????!!~
~in the ferst place i already said i'm busy!!~
~well screw him!! its my freaking com, my freaking account, so i freaking sign in whenever i want!!!!~

~i just dun get it..~
~must i talk to every guy dat says hi to me..???~
~call me unfriendly, unsocial or whatsoever...i dun care~
~i just dun want to chat with every single guy who's on my contact list..especially those that i dun noe..~
~okay fine, so maybe i'm not busy afterall..~
~and the only reason i put my status away is because i just dun want too many distratctions from all these outside ppl~
~ppl whom i'm used chatting to shud noe dat...~
~but issit so wrong to do so?~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 11:27 PM

SCHOOL:
~its been almost a week since my studio project started..~
~well, i got to say that so far everythings been going on pretty smoothly~
~on the other hand...recently, there had been some troubles in school~
~something in which i think ting, serene, jean anne and me can no longer do anything about..~
~sometimes, to think of it, its kinda sad...but..we did what we can and now we're just moving on...concentrating on our schoolwork~
~and yea, finally....we got to chose our focus: ferst choice- Interactive media, second choice-games design, third choice-animation..~
~really hope to get into my ferst choice of course..~
~erm...wad else...~
~ouh yar...i failed my digi assignment 4..i got an F~
~but, luckily i had the chance to redo...and this time around, results was a B~
~for the ferst time i feel so satisfied with my digi results!!~
~erm....other than dat...i think i got no further updates ...~
~can't wait for school to end!!!!~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 6:06 PM

~yesterday:~
~went to town before lecture to get skirt for presentation..~
~den went to ps after lecture to get slippers and t-shirt~
~ahah..i dragged jean anne along..and end up had to carry her osmose paper bag with the word SALE largely printed on it..haha~
~but end up...she bought 3 nice t-shirts..(should have bought the gay one too)..heh..soo cool~
~heahaha~
~aniway...nice slippers and i loved it..~
~so today...i wore it to school~
~but...too bad..~
~slippers can nvr protect ur feet~
~the stupid stool at the drawing studio accidentally landed directly on my toes...~
~so ting...you must piggyback me for the rest of the semester..okay? hehhe~
~well...as usual, being me...i had wild imaginations of a broken toe..and den the toe decomposes and it'll just drop off anytime soon..~
~den again...that's too much..~
~hmms....i end up limping whenever i walk and my little toe is swelling like siao..~
~which also means that i can't go out tmr..~
~and due to this injury...i noe i sure did disappoint my best fren..~
~coz i told her i can't go to the party with her tmr..~
~well...dunno if she's still angry..~
~but..i hope she understands and hope she doesn't think i'm lying or something..~
~i'll nvr do such a thing to my frens~
~whatever it is...i'm really sorry..~
~i guess the pain of ur best fren being angry at you is worst den the pain of losing ur toe..~
~i dunno...but that's wad i'm feeling ryte now...guilty and helpless~


~aniway.......i hope this feet could cure soon..~
~and hopefully i could walk as per normal by tuesday..~
~or else...i won't be able to fit into my shoes and eeww...imagine formal clothing with slippers...~
~ain't that weird?..~
~i'm really looking forward to the presentation..~
~we'll look so cute with our ties..~
~haha..~

~all the best for studio project ppl!!~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 9:32 PM

~i'm in school ryte now..~
~okay so tell me,what's the point of coming for lessons from 6-9pm but all you do in class is your own stuff..~
~coz we're done with typo module and so now we're slacking..~
~haha...stupppiiidddd..~
~okay nvm...shud stop complaining..~
~hmms...i'm freaking bored ryte now...~
~my com can't connect to msn..~
~my com can't even open friendster..~
~and its only 7.00~
~i still have 2hrs...arghhhhhhhhh!!~
~ouh yea babe, we were planning on going to esply this wed ryte..~
~sorry i guess we'll have to cancel~
~coz i end at 1 and i've got make up lessons till 3 i guess~
~hmms, unless u have no probs meeting me at 3 and maybe we have dinner outside or something?~
~well, its up to you~
~it's been quite some time since we last hanged out late also ryte?..~
~hehe~
~hmmmss........actually i've got nothing else to say ryte now..~
~so, toodles~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 6:56 PM

~this goes out to a guy...who told his fren foz that we're attached..~....(i noe u noe whu u are)
~i dunno if you've ever read blogs or even touched the keyboard before..~
~but if u're reading this...i just want to say..."STOP DREAMING!!"~
~since when did i become ur gerlfren???!~
~stop blurting out nonsence i tell you!!~
~what other stories do you want to create?????...just shut up..~
~or i swear i will give ur number to the police!!~
~ouh no...wait i shall just tell my brother...~
~den you know what he'll do????~
~all he needs to do is just sit on you and damn....you'll be worst den a pancake by then...~
~so just pray to god that you'll still be alive..~
~i hate ppl like you~
~just leave me alone!!~
~i've had enough of ur nonsence!!!!!~
~i'm just not some gerl u can push around aite....~
~damn..i wish u're reading this...coz if i still had ur number i'd kol u and scream all this shit hard in your ears...and i'll flood ur freaking inbox as well!!!!~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 10:08 PM

~today we went to the zoo~
~spent almost the whole day there..~
~it was really tiring..but, it was fun..~
~although there were some things which ended up bothering me..~
~overall, i still enjoyed myself~

~i guess, there are some things that you have to just leave aside and not bother about~
~and i guess you'll need lots of strength to pull through it~
~maybe, i wasn't strong enough...~
~the awkward feeling that had never been there before laid infront of me throughout the whole day..~
~i felt sad, guilty and angry...all at one time~
~should i even be feeling this way?~
~i have no idea myself...~
~all i know is dat, it will never be the same again...no more a friend, not even an acquaintance to hope for..~

~but luckily for me, on my way home from the zoo, my brother gave me a kol...~
~he said 'hello again'...coz he didn't have to go back to camp tonite..~
~which, also means more fun at home!! yipee!!~
~at least, someone to help put my mind off everything...~

~bad news: i've not completed my maya assignment..~
~dateline: tomorrow!!!~
~i have totally forgotten how to place the lighting and how to animate the cameras...~
~all i did was extrude the cube faces and taa-da...i got a lorry!!!~
~haha, i guess lorry is the easiest thing to create..~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 8:29 PM

~i lied to myself by saying i dun have any feelings for him animore~
~truth is the opposite...~
~i never did lose any of those feelings since 26th april 2004 up till today~
~no matter how hard i tried..no one could replace him..~
~but, truth is no use anymore..~
~i used to think that i'm on the losing end~
~well, den again, maybe i'm not~
~not knowing is sometimes better den knowing~
~and maybe some things happen for a reason~
~most people long to see their love ones happy~
~i guess i should be happy and move on as well~
~its alryte if i'm not the one with him anymore~
~although sometimes i wish i could be that gerl~
~but, i had my chance..and i suppose great things in life only comes once~
~once you lose it, you'll lose it forever~
~i learned a few things...like for example how i should be thankful cause i still have my family and friends who are undeniably the most beautiful people in my life~
~i also learned not to say 'if only' anymore...~
~cause no matter how many times i say if only...nothing will change..~
~i guess trapping myself in my own emotions will do me no good~
~its no better than suicide~
~so i decided that i'm gonna start afresh~
~now that i've let it out....i'm also gonna leave it behind..~
~just leave it stated here in my blog...just like footprints~
~maybe in many days to come, i'll just smile when i read this entry and say.."those were the days.."~
:)

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 5:02 PM