~it's been years since i last met Z~
~the two of us were having a great time, enjoying our so called reunion~
~and hence we joked, laughed and had fun as frenz~
~i was rather disappointed at the fact that its just a fren sort of thing going on~
~but at the same time i was enjoying myself~
~the funny thing is, while i was sitting there, in my dream, this thought came to me and i told myself, "u're just dreaming..this is just a dream"~
~i knew that i was still sound asleep and that i was dreaming but, another thought came to me "i dun wanna wake up. at least, not yet"~
~and so in the dream, Z and i were still talking, he asked me lots and lotsa questions..some interesting, some lame, but i didn't mind dem~
~and it was somewhere in between this conversation dat a fren of his passed by~
~i thought he was his fren, well, not until he came over and gave Z a huge blow to the ground~
~Z was bleeding badly by then~
~all i could do was stand by his side and gently rub his back~
~i was helpless~
~the more traumatising part is when that bloody guy came over and stepped Z's face~
~i was damn furious obviously, he was acting like some barbarian~
~i wun say much on this part~
~but in the end, Z was lying on the ground, unconscious~
~i went over beside him, looked at his face, in front of mine~
~i saw that sweet, soothing face, the exact face that i had fallen in love wif a few years back~
~the only difference there was to it was that the face was stained wif blood now~
~i shouted his name over and over again, asking him to wake up~
~but he couldn't listen~
~so i sat there and weep, holing his hand tight in mine and i whispered to him " dun leave me again...please dun leave me"~
~unlike in the beginning of the dream, i was hoping that it was reality~
~but thank god it wasn't, and aniway, it is said that nightmares will only remain a nightmare, they'll never come true~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 2:43 PM

~i didn't mean to hurt this guy~
~it's not that i dun like him or sumthing, actually i do~
~but i can't just sit back and treat him like he's someone special~
~no doubt he's nice, he's sweet and all~
~but i dun trust myself to love anione animore~
~somehow, if its not me end up being hurt, i'll be the one hurting them~
~den about the other guy, the case of the ex~
~yup, he's adorable, fun talking to and stuff~
~den again, i can't love him~
~he's too nice..not the type to fool around wif~
~i mean, ive done dat once, dun want to do it another tyme~
~its obvious dat he's trying to seek for another chance for us to get back together~
~but..nah..he's simply a great friend to me rite now~
~the only ex that i'm able to confide in in tymes of ups and downs~
~like, which ex will listen to u brag about ur present boyfren?~
~very few are willing to do so~
~most wud simply go with the "whatever" tone~
~basically, i'm me now, back to square one..the old me~
~and i'm waiting for a new life ahead of me~
~hoping to start fresh and end as lovely and as simply as possible in a brand new environment~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 11:50 AM

~leave me alone, why are u haunting my mind?~
~it's been years now~
~why do i miss him?~
~what memories do we share?~
~do i regret?~
~those smiles, those tears?~
~do they even mean anything to u now?~
~or am i hoping for a miracle~
~heh...maybe i am..i'm dreaming...he'll never come back~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 10:39 PM