~hey there~
~seems like i've not touched the keyboard for the last few days~
~well, hows life here?~
~basically, it sucks!~
~currently, at this very moment that is, i hate everything around me!~
~blablabla...i dun noe wad to say.......~
~all i know is dat i hate it here!~
~i so hate it here!!~
~someone get me out of this place(my house)~
~f@%$~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 10:38 PM

~finally~
~the week's came to an end~
~sooo tiring~
~tmr, i'll be heading to my second home-johore~
~it's been quite some time since i've last been there~
~erm, well today was not much of a difference from any other days~
~apart from the fact that today is a friday...kind of makes everything sound really soothing~
~i guess dat's only because it's the start of the weekend~
~ouh yar, finally saw the farhan guy in school just now~
~i didn't really recognise him when he called out my name just now~
~erm, i only remembered dat he's tall? haha...dat's it i guess~
~well, saw him face to face~
~cute?...hmm...not so~
~handsome??...hmm...not so as well~
~but, kind of charming~
~i guess, it's because of his smile~
~he looks like the type whu wants to look cool and casual like all the time~
~nah nah, dun get me wrong..i dun mean dat in a bad way..~
~i mean like cool, COOL..u noe..not like those whu tries to act cool...ar, i dun noe..fine wadever~
~still find it stupid dat he had to like reintroduce himself just now~
~well, what am i to do?~
~it's these eyes dat are partially blind~
~erm, kay no...not partially blind...partially blured?...wadever~
~but well, my main point is, i've finally seen him and yar, dat's it~
~there's nothing more to dat~
~what else?~
~ouh yar, met faz at town just now~
~erm, we sat at starbucks and talk, talk and talk~
~den we walked~
~den we went back~
~he got a present for diana~
~so sweet of him~
~i mean it's like he's really putting in all the effort for the one he loves~
~ouh gosh...it's like alot of ppl around me are madly in love~
~can't stand dat~
~it's always, "waney, show me ur boyfren also"~
~den i'll be like "no i dun have a boyfren"~
~and they'll go like "huh?! really??...why dun have?~
~i dun noe!!!~
~why is everyone in the mood for love?~
~and why am i not??~
~am i like too sick and tired of it?~
~or am i too disappointed with something~
~wadever it is, i leave everything to like go along with the flow or something...~
~when the ryte time comes, i'll be in love with someone out there...~
~so, yea, nah...no beggy;)~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 11:50 PM

~i am lacking sleep!!!~
~i am practically a walking panda~
~went to school at 10.30..~
~erm...well, actually we were supposed to meet up at 10.30~
~but, i reached there at around 10.50~
~late ey?~
~haha~
~lessons started at 1, but my groupmates and i came early to watch a movie~
~movie: to present during understanding media tutorial~
~well, the movie was cool i think despite the fact that it was produced like many years ago~
~however, i didn't noe a single thing about the show...hence, my presentation was very vague- that's what miss gail said~
~ouh gosh..hopefully, mext week, when we'll have to present on a celebrity, i'll be like much more prepared~
~it's kind of pathetic to be standing infront of the whole class presenting something that i myself am not quite sure about~
~hmms, wad else?~
~nothing interesting happened today, so, i guess dat's it for now~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 9:58 PM

~yoohoo~
~this crazeee gerl by the name of liana here is like sitting beside me, shaking her bottle of hair dye like as if she's werking in some bubble tea shop~
~well, its 12:12 am ryte now~
~just finished doing my school assignment...hehe...everything at the very last minute~
~liana also just finished helping me update my blog settings!..like, finally!!~
~hmms, nah...we aren't going to sleep yet, infact we are just about to dye her hair and maybe fill our stomaches~
~erm, dun really noe wad to talk about today~
~well, at least, i wrote something and maybe in a few months tyme when i read this, i'll be like thinking.."wad crap"~
~okay...crap!~
~blablabla..~
~bubbyes~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 12:10 AM

~woohoo~
~such a tiring day~
~feel so sleepy~
~well, actually, we didn't do anything much in school today~
~our creative process tutorial was cut short to only 30mins instead of 2 hrs~
~and so, we were allowed to spent the rest of the 1 and a half hours in the library doing our own work~
~yeps, obviously, our own things means slacking!!~
~hmms, and after that boring 2 hours, we had another 2 free hours- our break dat is~
~we went to the school'd north canteen~
~finally tasted the food there after 3 long weeks~
~erm, okayla, quite nice~
~hmms, and after dat, we had communication skills tutorial~
~how sad...next weeks lessons will be extended to 3 hours instead of 2~
~ouh man...wonder how to tahan like dat~
~erms, ouh yar, just now, i received a message from my ex when i was in the library~
~he was asking for liana's number~
~suddenly he called me dear..~
~like, madddd!!~
~i think he's totally out of his mind~
~the other day he ignored me in the presence of my bro and now, he's like calling me dear???..~
~like hello??!! knock knock!!??~
~okay fine wadever~
~tmr i'll be doing my assignment~
~hoping dat it'll be something different and unique? maybe..~
~blablabla...wad else should i talk about??~
~well, there was like at least another malay in my class~
~it's not like my classmates left me out or anything like dat~
~it's just dat at certain points of time, when they tend to joke around and get the natural tendency to talk in their own language, i kinda feel pretty lost~
~i mean, i dun blame them..i can see dat they are not doing dat on purpose~
~well, i'm trying my best to be as sociable as possible...with every single person in class~
~overall, i think, they are all very very nice ppl~
~wadever it is, i consider myself lucky i have such united classmates~
~well, at least, most of them are...we go to class together, we eat together...u noe, dat sorta thing~
~hmms, okay, i think dat's it for tonite~
~toodles!!~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 9:22 PM

~hey there~
~today's father's day~
~i spent the whole morning drawing a portrait of my grandpapa's face~
~well, i suppose, so far, it's the best portrait i've drawn~
~love my granddad sooo much!!!...heezz~
~aniway, we went to swensens today~
~woohoo...stomache's real full~
~hmms, after dat we walked around northpoint for awhile...it's been awhile since i last did dat..~
~everything suddenly felt so at home...erm, i mean, i used to go to yishun alot for the past dunno how many years~
~but, everything changed when i suddely saw an old fren..~
~supposedly, he's an old fren...an ex to be more specific~
~i dunno wads going on wrong between the two of us...~
~dunno if there was ever anything wrong..~
~just now, when i saw him, he didn't even say hi~
~he didn't even smile or sumthing~
~worst still, he didn't even look at me~
~he was standing ryte beside me, talking to my bro~
~i was like a pole-lifeless..no need for attention kind of thing~
~well, arghh...wadever~
~i dunno why the hell i am so affected by this stupid incident~
~somehow, i just can't put my mind off it~
~sometimes, i just wish dat everything could be like normal~
~i dun really noe how much more normal i want things to be...but at least..evryone, in friendly terms~
~ouh man...i'm feeling like shit at this point of time...maybe i'll come back to explain wad i really mean next tyme alrytez~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 12:26 AM

~heylow~
~today's lesson was held at the mac lab~
~kinda cool~
~we had to listen to 7 different soundtracks~
~and den, we had to chose one and base on the that we chose, we had to paint an image using corel painter or photoshop~
~fun..but kinda complecating since i've not actually handled a corel painter or photoshop before~
~well, i chose this kinda funky song and was planning to do somesort of a graffitti~
~erm, i didn't get to finisg it in school just now~
~i didn't get to finish it in school just now~
~another cool assignment dat i'll have to work on is somesort of a photography thing~
~well, i'll have to go take 3 different photos...all 3 in black and white~
~was planning to do something different~
~instead of having a nature based kind of work, i was planning to focus my work more on feminism~
~it'll be a little harder i guess...but hopefully, it's worth the try~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 12:00 AM

~hey there~
~hmms...well, got a rather sad news~
~u noe, the cute guy dat i was talking about..~
~well, yea, the one i saw in school~
~he's got a gerlfren already~
~aww..i knew it~
~cute guys like him couldn't be un-attached~
~haha~
~well, didn't see him in school for the past few days~
~or maybe...its simply because my eyes stopped searching for the sight of him...heezz~
~nah...wadever it is, i think they are a cute couple~
~well, in a way, i am kinda jealous~
~because i wish i could have a boyfren too!!!~
~no no, wait...nah...changed my mind, i dun wanna have a boyfren YET~
~very leceh...erm, meaning..very troublesome..~
~well, aniway, back to my story telling..~
~the other day in school, someone asked for my number~
~a guy..like duh..~
~erm, he's a second year student~
~name's farhan..if i didn't remember wrongly~
~erm, he's fren was the one who came forward and asked for my number~
~all the while he was standing behind with one other fren~
~hmms, he's okay, quite cute i guess( i wasn't wearing my spects at dat point of time)~
~one things for sure is dat he's very tall~
~msged and called once...dat was yesterday~
~well, my guess is dat he'll disappear pretty soon..haha~
~as per normal...like all the other guys i used to noe~
~come and go just like dat~
~but nah...dun care~
~wadever~
~erm, lessons in school are like damn slacky~
~cool thing...but, scary in a way~
~luckily we dun have exams...~
~erm, wad else?~
~haha..i dun noe..~
~so, dat's it i guess..~
~toodles~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 10:43 PM

~today....well, wad exactly happened today?~
~actually, i myself dun really noe..haha~
~hmms, yesterday we went for some kind of cca open house thingy~
~ouh man...the sports hall was like so damn crowded~
~i can't even see wads there and exactly wad was going on around...~
~well den my fren and i came to a conclusion of which cca to join~
~we'll just go with our last resort: sdn club...erm, hopefully it is considered a cca~
~hmms...kinda having a headache ryte now~
~toodles~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 12:06 AM

~ouh my god~
~thot i could get a good nyte sleep~
~haha, thot dat maybe i'd be having a naish dream today...of someone maybe?~
~but, nah...turned out to be a nightmare~
~ouh man...it was like damn scary!!~
~i slept for like only 2 and a half hours and couldn't put myself to sleep again after dat~
~so, i decided to send a few messages out to ppl i noe..~
~hoping that at least one would reply to my pathetic message so early in the morn~
~well, luckily for me, one of dem replied..hehe~
~so, i gave dat person a call and ended up having a three way conversation wif him and his fren~
~well, i must say dat it's kinda nice to hear his voice again after like so long~
~suddenly, i felt a sense of security especially after dat f%$@ing dream!!!~
~phew!!~
~at least, he kept me company for awhile~
~its like 4.33 now~
~i wonder how the hell i'm gonna stay awake throughout the lecture tomorrow~
~it'll be a 2hr long lecture~
~and ouh my goodness, i slept for like only 2.5 hours~
~damn it!!~
~but, i'm lucky dat after the lecture tomorrow i won't be having anymore lessons~
~two hours of school and off i go....~
~hmm....wad shud i do now?~
~i am feeling rather sleepy actually~
~but i'd have automatic flashbacks of the dream the moment i close my eyes~
~but heard dat nightmares will never come true...~
~once again, phew!!!~
~alrytez, lets change the topic...~
~erms, wad to?~
~maybe bout the guy i talked to just now~
~well, i dun noe if i had ever mentioned bout him before..~
~aniway, he's a year younger~
~he's cute~
~he's friendly~
~rather charming....~
~but, i only treat him as a fren~
~we went out before...but it wasn't only the two of us...it was with another fren of mine as well..a gerl..~
~erm, eversince i started schooling and he started his school holidays, we kind of drifted apart~
~there were less messages, no more phone calls at nyte..~
~hmm..in a way, it's a good thing but...feels kinda boring sometimes~
~well, he says dat he misses me..~
~i dun noe wad to feel...shud i feel glad/flattered dat someone misses me?~
~or, shud i be feeling bad because i can't say to him, "i miss you too"....coz i dun..~
~and i shud be feeling guilty of course for calling him at such a late hour just because i dun have anione else to talk to~
~but, i do like him though, like i said, as a fren..~
~aniway, he told me dat he's stressed up..~
~i asked him y~
~said dat his ex-gerlfren got together with one of his classmates~
~guess he wasn't too happy with dat~
~haha...said that he was jealous..abit~
~guess he still hasn't really gotten over her..~
~ouh god...hopefully one fine day, he'll find someone he truly loves and whu'd love him back as dearly~
~my eyes are like so damn heavy ryte now...~
~but, damn it!! how do i sleep?~
~i guess the only way i'd be able to sleep ryte now is if i have many...i really mean lots of ppl around me..~
~i suddenly wish dat i am in my school's food junction ryte now...during daylyte i mean~
~i woud rather sit on those hard plastic chairs, rest my head on the hard tables and sleep~
~guess it'd be much more peaceful!!~
~ouh well, i'll stop here for now..~
~it's 4.54 now...my mom will be awake in about 6 minutes tyme i guess...~
~well, HOPEFULLY!!~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 4:20 AM

~woohoo~
~guess wad?...~
~saw dat cute guy again in school today~
~hahaa..my eyes were like so glued on him while he was eating at the food junction~
~wish i could like see him again..maybe during every break dat i have..haha~
~i might sound too transparent ryte now i noe.hehkz~
~but hey, seriously, he's like so cute~
~well, he sat at a table quite near to where i was sitting~
~since my back was somewhat facing him, i had to slant to my left a little to get a clearer look..~
~well, at least, i could pretend to be looking at my fren while talking to her and erm, at the same tyme, like steal a few glances of him..hahakz~
~nah nah....just like his cuteness dats all~
~i mean i dun even noe him wad~
~i suppose he has a gerlfren or sumthing like dat..i mean like such a cute guy without a gerl is rather impossible?~
~well, well, dats it for today, the guy whu got me so caught up by his looks..hehe..toodles~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 9:44 PM

~wad a tiring day~
~had drawing lessons today~
~cool~
~my ferst drawing: face of a guy~
~my second drawing: bracelete my sis and bro-in-law got for me on my 14th berfday~
~had two lectures~
~zzzzZZZZZZzzz~
~boring!!~
~almost slept thru the colour theory lecture~


~feeling something lately~
~but, wad is it?~
~such a heavy feeling all of a sudden~
~i'm like hoping to reach out for something~
~but, wad is it?~
~or is it the usual torments of the past?~
~disappointment?~
~maybe~
~but what the hell for?~
~arghh!!! i hate this feeling~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 11:23 PM

~woohoo~
~got myself a brand new mac powerbook~
~haha cool ey~
~hmms, all thanks to my dad and mom~
~i'm not quite used to it yet though~
~so, i'm still kinda lost...like for example if u ask me wads the use of the garageband and stuff like dat...i'll say I DUN NOE~
~hmms...today, i'm supposed to go for some bbq at venture era's boss's house~
~wel, knowing my dad very well, it's as if he'll allow me to go~
~in the ferst place, he doesn't even know dat i'm still so called werking~
~doesn't seem much like it actually~
~it's been more den a month now and i still have not broken zero!!!~
~i mean, come on, how much more pathetic can it be?~
~i love the work place~
~i love the ppl there~
~infact it's more of like going to school instead of going to work~
~cool ey~
~but, den again, wif things like curfews and stuff like dat, how the hell am i supposed to fix any sales appointment with anyone?~
~well, yea i noe, it's still kinda possible but, most of them are working adults which means appointments could only be fixed aftetr 6~
~my curfew: 7p.m~
~see wad i mean~
~well, i can't even fix appointments with my relatives coz i'm afraid they'll blurt it out to my dad~
~i'd rather play it safe~
~hmms...one way or another, i'll try my best to do something..~
~well, lets forget bout the whole werk thingy~
~i'm like so freaking bored ryte now~
~feel like watching a movie...hmms, wad show shall i watch~
~to think of it, actually, i still have got my assignment to complete~
~but, haha, just looking at it makes me feel like sleeping man~
~communication skills is equivalent to those boring english courses we used to take in secondary school~
~alrytez...think dats all for now~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 5:29 PM

~well, school's back~
~except dat this tyme it's a whole new environment~
~felt kinda weird at first, but nah..it's kinda cool actually~
~love my classmates, at least, beginning to..hehe~
~they are nice people~
~i'm like the only malay in my class~
~but, yea, i'm blending in just fine i suppose~
~hmms...saw a cute guy in school~
~guess he's a senior~
~haha~
~woopsie...but hey, i guess there's no sin in looking at cute guys~
~noticed him from the first day of orientation actually~
~nah nah...just complimenting on his looks dats it~
~erm, so far, the ferst week in school i must say is very damn slacky~
~lots of lectures were being cancelled~
~but dats a good thing ey~
~coz in a way it means: zzZZZzzz~


~hmms...the last tyme i updated my blog, i think i wrote something bout a guy~
~something bout how he broke my heart~
~well, yea, gotten over dat shit~
~there are a few other guys who came in and out of my life after him~
~well, even till today, it's always someone new and den, in a few months tyme..they go M.I.A~
~haha, gotten pretty used to it already~
~one thing's for sure though, i'm not gonna fall for their sweet shit!~
~dun believe in all this crappy boy likes gerls and gerl likes boy stuff anymore~
~kinda bullshit~


~today, after school, i went to causeway point with my mom and liana~
~ate at delifrance~
~surprised to see risma working there~
~well, she's taller den me now, haha~
~she's still the same sweet looking gerl though~
~hmm...all of a sudden, i miss my old frens~
~people like fiza, aww...miss her so much~
~people like jessie and ifah...awwww...miss them lots too~
~wish we could like hang out or something~
~well, my eyes are like gonna close anytyme soon~
~toodles~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 1:37 AM