~hey there~
~well, today's already a sunday...~
~how quickly times passes by..~
~dun feel like going to school tomorrow..~
~feel so tired~
~sometimes i just wish that i was still in primary one~
~den i'll start to get all cranky eraly in the morning and persuade my mom to write a letter to the teacher and let me stay at home~
~haha, does days are long gone~
~rite now, the fact that i'm not going to school withithout a valid reason will just get me a deba~
~no thanks..~
~hmms, aniway, today, liana, fizah and me went out again..~
~well, this time around, we went to causeway point only~
~just had to get a few stuff and dat's it, we headed for my house..~
~watched you got served...~
~so happened that liana borrowed the same story from ben just now when i actually just purchased it a few days back~
~ouh yar...met up with ben..coz he wants to give liana the disc and also talk maybe? i dunno..~
~erm, had a crazy day today...~
~everything seemed so haywired all of a sudden~
~we were not really thinking straight i guess...~
~it's like, we walked in the wrong direction so many times~
~haha, mad us~
~we also laughed laughed and laughed~
~i guess, rite now, that's the only thing which could make me put my mind off whatever happened yesterday~
~yesterday's story:~
~erm, we were supposed to have our outing to the zoo...~
~we: liana, ben, foz, fizah and me~
~but, the guys were not really for it~
~so, we decided to just go somewhere else...~
~which, we decided later on to go to the museum that is..~
~erm, ferst we went to the one at city hall, some peranakan museum...~
~it was kinda cool...~
~we also got to get in for free, cause liana's from nafa and nafa has somekind of membership with them~
~erm, aniway, after dat, we went to another museum...just beside victoria theatre~
~that museum was damn huge~
~triple storey and we paid like only 2 bucks to view everything....~
~turned out to be damn nice...~
~we stayed there for quite long..~
~we only got out of the museum when we heard an announcement saying that the museum will be closing in 15 minutes time~
~we sure did had alot of fun there~
~erm, den after that, we actually wanted to watch the fireworks at esplanade..~
~but, decided not to as it was raining...~
~so, we went to far east to eat..~
~ouh yar, along the way...~
~i received a call from nuriman~
~erm, a guy, i got to know quite recently~
~he wanted to meet up since he was also at town at that point of time~
~but, i was afraid that he might feel uncomfortable aound my friends and i was also afraid that my friends will feel uncomfortable~
~ferst he said "ouh..i know it's because u're a poly student whereas i used to be in ite so u are shy to mix around with ppl like me ryte?"~
~well, nah, no, that's not why i didn't want to see him~
~den he said, i am anti-social~
~like. what the hell, he didn't have to say that rite~
~he really spoilt my mood...~
~but, nah, screw him...~
~den, when we were at far east, ben said that he saw matin~
~luckily, i didn't see him~
~or else, i would have felt like killing mself on the spot~
~erm, aniway, after we finished our food, foz told us this stupid lame joke~
~it was kinda freaky~
~den again, it turned out to be a joke~
~okay, fine, i could have just laughe it off~
~but i didn't...~
~i was so caught up with all the other emotions within me and i started to flare up after that joke~
~it's like i couldn't stand it animore~
~it was my mistake i admit..~
~it was such a small thing to actually get angry at~
~so, if any of u guys are reading this, i'd like to say, i'm sorry~
~erm, back to my story....after that, foz tried to console me, but i kept shooing him off~
~he got all fucked up too i guess~
~well, liana and i wanted to go to the toilet after that....we were going down the escalator to the 3rd level and foz just continued down on his own..~
~he left just like dat and it made me even more frustrated~
~okay, but, worst part is, when we saw him at the entrance, he was happily talking to abg arif and his other friend...~
~he saw us walking pass him yet ignored us~
~abg ben was the one who chased after us~
~we then went to hyatt hotel's toilet since the toilet at far east were all under construction`
~when i came out, i received a call from foz~
~ferstly saying that he's sorry bout the joke- seriously, i was over it... i knew then dat i was kinda over reacting as well~
~so, partly my mistake~
~secondly, he also said sorry because he couldn't send us home as he already had plans to go to the gig at esplanade with his friends~
~so, well, okay fine...~
~abg ben wasn't happy with that fact..~
~he thinks that, we should all go back together as we went out together..~
~aniway, it's not like all the time we get to go out together~
~liana and i totally agree with that~
~but, den again, we can't stop him..~
~erm, whatever it is, he still carried on with his friends and liana and i headed back~
~erm, blablabla....~
~when i reached home, i received another call from him~
~he was asking how's everything~
~also saying sorry about whatever happened~
~he was still wondering why though, that we were angry at him~
~he explained to me about how he had already promised abg arif and his other friends...blablabla~
~i just couldn't care less~
~to me, whatever had happened happened...~
~nothing we say now could change anything~
~so, might as well, just forget everything and everyone should start cooling off...~
~well, he said that abg ben was really angry with him when they were at the train station~
~den again in the ferst place. he didn't really come up to all of us and tell us that he was going to leave with the rest of his friends, so, dats his mistake on that part~
~he told me that he said something to ben maybe withouht thinking much...~
~" if it was a gerl that i love that i am not sending home, den it's a different thing...but, this is only a fren"....(translated version)~
~he den asked me, "am i ryte to say this?"~
~yup, i suppose he's ryte..~
~well, liana and i have always realised the fact that we have broken up with them about 4 years back...~
~and we are not expecting dem to be sending us to our doorstep or something~
~but, like what ben said, we have such meetings only once in awhile...~
~i guess, it's just more appropriate if we go together and go back together as a group~
~it's not because of i like you and you like me dat you have to send me home~
~i wonder if he treasures this friendship as much as maybe liana and i do~
~at least, as much as i do....~
~it seems as if he treats us like we are noone special...just normal friends that come and go in his life~
~and that fact hurts alot~
~suddenly it feels like i am about to lose someone special in my life...i dun noe why~
~it's like worst den losing a boyfriend~
~i was sad to hear wadever he had to say~
~to him, he thinks that he has not done anything wrong~
~ well, yea, he hasn't actually committed a crime...~
~but to place in simple words, he disappointed us~
~dat's all...not much of anger i suppose...but, more of diasppointment~
~and by saying dat, he made everything worst~
~personally, i feel that maybe, i was wrong... maybe, some relationships are meant to be forgotten once broken~
~maybe some friendships are not meant to last......~
~maybe some or infact all happy moments has a sad ending to it and are left as memories~
~foz and i, i realised that we have had lots and lots of small little conflicts here and there..~
~especially, lately~
~i hate it but i just dun noe how to avoid it~
~and everytime it happens, it will leave me in a blue~
~just like now~
~i am so sick and tired of it..i know he is too~
~maybe we are just not meant to be, not as lovers, not even as friends.....~
a ToUcH sO FiNe
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