~4.38: sitting infront of this fucking com which lags like 90% of the time~
~and guess wad????!!! its new years eve!!! like 'WOW'~
~WHATEVER~
~maybe its true...i don't have a life after all..~
~my frens are going out wif my other frens~
~some are out wif their guy frens~
~and i'm stuck at home~
~doing nothing~
~how much more fun can life get??!!~
~seriously...try it...sit homee all day and feel the excitement of being bored!!~
~yeepee!!!~
~all i do lately is work...schoolwork i mean...~
~schoolwork schoolwork schoolwork and nothing more den dat~
~so much work and so little fun~
~arghhhh!!!!!!!!! fuck!!!~
~i want to get out of this freaking shell~
~maybe i shud start rebelling???????!!~
~cool ey?~
~i shud start clubbing~
~start smoking~
~start drinking..~
~hmms...................eeeeeeeeeeewwwwww....nah~
~not gonna do dat...dat's like way extreme..~
~but wad can i do???~
~arghh!!!! i'm freaking bored!!~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 4:38 PM

~rumours~
~i guess everyone hates it..~
~i wonder why ppl have to talk about something which does not have anything to do with dem..~
~what the hellllllllll!!!!~
~i am officially sick and tired of everything...~
~things come one after another and i dunno how to handle everything ryte now..~
~seriously..~
~i am so fucking stressed up!!!!~
~so many things in my head..~
~i am going bonkers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 12:18 PM

~wednesday: i skipped lecture..~

~thursday: i skipped lecture again...~
~den i went for my appointment..~
~and den... someone gave me a damn huge shock~
~and well, i have to say dat i'm rather disappointed and sad..~
~but, i guess, i'll just have to learn to live with it..~

~hmms...and den friday comes...~
~and i was supposed to go to school..~
~the plan was: wake up at 7... my dad will send my mom to work ferst and den, send me to school..~
~so, estimated tyme to reach school would be: 8.45~
~and so, off we went... but i had a terrible stomache cramp while i was in the car..~
~i thought, as usual, my stomache cramps will pass...but, this tyme around, it didn't..~
~and so, i decided to go to the clinic instead..~
~initially, i was supposed to ask someone to accompany me coz both my parents are working and my grandmama was at kl...~
~but, in the end, no one could accompany me.. and so, my mom took a half day leave to send me to our family clinic in yishun~
~hmms, luckily, we didn't have to wait long for my turn to meet the doctor..~
~so, blablablablablbalba.....the doctor gave me 3 different types of medicine...(eeeeewww!) one for pain-tablet is green in colour..very gross, one for cramp and the other...erm....its something not sooo nice to even mention..~
~damn....so many stomache problems...i get gastric often and now, this!!~

~saturday: which is today~
~went to fetch my brother..~
~we went for lunch after dat but too bad...this stomache gave me problems again and so, i wasn't in such a good mood..~
~can someone out there donate their stomache to me??~~~
~whoever is kind enough pls...~
~haha~
~blalbblabla.............and after dat, i tried to do my lindsay lohan poster...which has to be handed in on the ferst day of school~
~and now...i'm just sitting here wasting my tyme...~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 10:39 PM

~friday: was really happy to receive a message from my bro when i was in school~
~told me dat he reached home~
~i guess somehow, drawing lessons dat day automatically turned...interesting?...~
~maybe its just the excitement of finally getting to see my bro again after 2 long weeks~
~so, my mommy, daddy and bro fetched me from school..~
~and den, we went for dinner..~
~everything seemed so perfect:)~

~saturday: we went out...~
~went to look for my mommy's x-box~
~haha, how cute ryte....my mommy wants to play x-box!!~
~unbelievable~
~she say she wants to play the racing game...~
~dunno wads up with racing...release her stress i suppose..haha~
~but, we ended up getting a ps2 instead..~
~coz the person say x-box is not good and he's not selling it animore~
~hmms, ps is fun...~
~some games...not all..~
~i tried playing the fifa 06..~
~the score was 6-0~
~haha, obviously, 0=me!!~
~heh, and wads worst is, i scored an own goal..~
~haha, how stoopid..~

~sunday: spent the morning doing my assignment..~
~after completing my assignment, played incredibles with my bro..~
~haha, very fun..~
~but, we didn't get to complete the whole thing coz he had to prepare to go back to camp~
~so, we stopped playing around 5 and got ready to sent him off~
~my bro looked damn smart in his uniform...~
~haha, if he loses weight, i bet he'll look even better..~
~hmms, y do happy moments pass by so quickly???~
~but, i'm waiting....for us to complete the rest of the game this coming saturday.....~
~as always, i'm missing him alot...~
~aniway, after sending him, my parents and i went to vista point to eat..~
~saw hafiz's parents and sister there..~
~his sister recognised me..~
~and his mom tegor~
~he has a cute sister..very sweet and pretty~

~monday: sat at home the whole day, did my sketchings for storyboarding~
~den, prepared to go to school which starts at 6~
~my dad wanted to send me to school..~
~he just returned from work and he told me to wait for him at the void deck..~
~so, i waited...5.30...5.35....5.40...5.45!!!~
~i was so damn frustrated!!!~
~lessons starts in 15mins and he still have not arrived~
~he reached at around 5.50~
~and i was already so damn grumpy...~
~i was like cursing in silence~
~den he said, he fell off from his bike~
~he was at the traffic junction when he wanted to make a turn..~
~but, he accidentally breaked too hard i suppose when he saw the red light...~
~and the bike went off balance..~
~and he fell off the bike..~
~thank goodness that road was not busy....~
~he wasn't strong enough to bring the bike up by himself..~
~so he had to stop other bikers and ask for help..~
~god!! how selfish can i get?!!!~
~i sarted cursing...when my father was actually out there, in trouble..and he still had to rush back just to make sure that i'm not late for school~
~i noe, i suck!~
~but i'm blessed, to have such a caring and loving dad...infact not only dad..but, family..~

~today: school..from 10-9~
~crazee school..dat's wad my dad calls it~
~hmm...everything was okay...as per normal..~
~den, received msg from my bro after school~
~haha, he said he was bored..~
~den he was so happy that today, they served ice-cream~
~hahhaha...when will he lose weight like dat??~
~and he keeps on disturbing me about my daily toilet routine~
~asked me who waits for me in the kitchen while i go to the toilet every nite now that he's not around~
~idiot!!! make me feel so miserable...~
~haha....i'll make sure when he comes home...he'll wait in the kitchen for hours!!~
~blablablaba..dat's all~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 12:15 AM

~I WANT MY BROTHER!!!~
~bad things happened today...erm...well, maybe not so bad...but still rather bad..~
~went to meet the sec sch ppl..~
~we sat outside kfc...~
~blablablbalblablab...den i wanted to throw this empty bottle at yus..okay, i din't want it to actually really hit him..~
~i wanted it to like go pass his face or something...~
~but, i guess gerls like me are simply bad at hand-eye coordination..~
~so yep, obviously it missed yus...infact, it flew over his head and hit this small, cute little gerl's head...~
~arghh!!!! dat sweet precious little thing got a knock on her head for no bloody reason!!~
~i felt damn guilty...~
~they told me to go say sorry...but i was damn super duper scared..~
~and so, i just sat there...and cried...~
~because i just can't get rid of that heavy feeling inside of me..~
~IT WASN'T YUS NYER FAULT...haha~
~and yea, i'm okay after dat..~but it was only for awhile~
~i was talking to liana on the phone while walking back home..~
~and den, when my father opened the door, he was like damn pissed~
~because i was busy talking on the phone and i didn't say assalamualaikom or anything like dat..~
~okay fine, my mistake, i may have been quite rude...~
~but, he didn't have to shout and slam the door ryte?!~
~so, i just walked in...feeling damn pissed at him as well, and i almost walked into my brothers room...~
~for a moment, i forgot dat my bro was not around...~
~i suddenly miss him alot today...~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 11:56 PM

~so much to do~
~so little tyme left~
~or maybe its just plain lazyness...~
~lazyness? correct spelling? or shud it be laziness?~
~okay fine, which ever way...~
~hmms, have to finish up hand and foot drawing and ouh my goodness, storyboarding, also have to complete 46 pages of drawing..~
~i can't believe it!!! can't expect us to bring our sketchbook to the supermarket all dat ryte??~
~haiyo....~
~okays, but i guess, i'll stop slacking this weekend..~
~at least, i'll TRY to stop~
~erm, ouh yar, i still got typography assignment and ouh yar, the digital imaging...and ouh yar another one...have to practice maya for the RE-TEST!!!arghh!!~
~shit...yup, i'm in deeeeeeeeep shit!~
~but i dun feel like digging my way out of all this shit...~
~sssssooooo lazy....lazy to move, lazy to think....hmms, haha, but, i'm still blogging...~
~how stupid ryte...shud go do my work now...~
~actually no, maybe i shud sleep now...sounds so much more fun:)~
~yeepeee!!~
~ouh another thing....talked to my bro recently...so nice to hear his voice...~
~he seems happy there, guess he's getting along pretty well with his frens and yups, their treating the ns men pretty well these days...good food and all...~
~so maybe, i shud just stop emo-ing...like ifah had just mentioned on the taggy...EMO EMO EMO...haha~
~emo-ing once in awhile is good you know...we shouldn't bottle up our feelings...~
~and so, aniway, i shud just be happy, and wait for my bro to return home for the weekends..although i'm not too sure which weekend..but, yea, he'll come home:)~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 10:31 PM

~i'm missing my brother alot..~
~i wish he's here ryte now to bring back all the smile and laughter...~
~suddenly, everything feels so empty~
~i may be able to bare the pain of losing a boyfren or sumthing...~
~but, nothing is as bad as this...~
~he's the one i depend on, to brighten up my day....but now dat he's not around, who do i go to???~
~i feel so lost...~
~now there's no one to accompany me to my late nyte dinner/kitchen trips~
~no one to just sit and crap around with~
~no one to suddenly come knocking on my bedroom door and den hide behind the wall to scare me..~
~no one to watch dvd's with~
~no one to teach me how to play cards~
~no one to tell me whether my hairstyle is okay or not okay~
~no one to argue with~
~no one whu could appreciate my extremely fudgy brownies like he does~
~no one to call me wannneeyy(with the very weird eeeyy sound)~
~no one i can call AWENG(my way of saying abang)~
~ryte now, i'm like the only child in this house..~
~eventhough there is the other brother...~
~it makes no difference...when he's around, it feels like he's not..and when he's not around...den yea, feels like he's not around..~
~i miss my bro alot!!!!....i dun noe how else to describe exactly what i'm feeling ryte now..i just noe dat i miss him..~
~i wish he's here...ryte now.......~
~only den maybe, even those most awful days would seem perfect in a way~~~~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 11:46 PM