~today we went to the zoo~
~spent almost the whole day there..~
~it was really tiring..but, it was fun..~
~although there were some things which ended up bothering me..~
~overall, i still enjoyed myself~

~i guess, there are some things that you have to just leave aside and not bother about~
~and i guess you'll need lots of strength to pull through it~
~maybe, i wasn't strong enough...~
~the awkward feeling that had never been there before laid infront of me throughout the whole day..~
~i felt sad, guilty and angry...all at one time~
~should i even be feeling this way?~
~i have no idea myself...~
~all i know is dat, it will never be the same again...no more a friend, not even an acquaintance to hope for..~

~but luckily for me, on my way home from the zoo, my brother gave me a kol...~
~he said 'hello again'...coz he didn't have to go back to camp tonite..~
~which, also means more fun at home!! yipee!!~
~at least, someone to help put my mind off everything...~

~bad news: i've not completed my maya assignment..~
~dateline: tomorrow!!!~
~i have totally forgotten how to place the lighting and how to animate the cameras...~
~all i did was extrude the cube faces and taa-da...i got a lorry!!!~
~haha, i guess lorry is the easiest thing to create..~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 8:29 PM

~i lied to myself by saying i dun have any feelings for him animore~
~truth is the opposite...~
~i never did lose any of those feelings since 26th april 2004 up till today~
~no matter how hard i tried..no one could replace him..~
~but, truth is no use anymore..~
~i used to think that i'm on the losing end~
~well, den again, maybe i'm not~
~not knowing is sometimes better den knowing~
~and maybe some things happen for a reason~
~most people long to see their love ones happy~
~i guess i should be happy and move on as well~
~its alryte if i'm not the one with him anymore~
~although sometimes i wish i could be that gerl~
~but, i had my chance..and i suppose great things in life only comes once~
~once you lose it, you'll lose it forever~
~i learned a few things...like for example how i should be thankful cause i still have my family and friends who are undeniably the most beautiful people in my life~
~i also learned not to say 'if only' anymore...~
~cause no matter how many times i say if only...nothing will change..~
~i guess trapping myself in my own emotions will do me no good~
~its no better than suicide~
~so i decided that i'm gonna start afresh~
~now that i've let it out....i'm also gonna leave it behind..~
~just leave it stated here in my blog...just like footprints~
~maybe in many days to come, i'll just smile when i read this entry and say.."those were the days.."~
:)

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 5:02 PM

~damn! suria sucks....the show just ended without ending...~
~hmms.....i think i'll get fat really soon...~
~last nite, i sat at home...~
~asked my dad to buy for me my fav chicken rice at tripple eight~
~and den, after eating the chicky rice, i ienjoyed a bowl of banana split~
~and after dat, i ate curry puff...erm, the very classic one, the one u can get from mama shops..~
~and den, chicken pau...~
~and den i ate crab crackers...~
~and i did all dat while watching hindi movie...~
~hmms...well, after dat i slept and woke up at 12..~
~and wow! its a new year..~
~and ever since i woke up, cleaned up and all, i've been eating eating and eating..~
~i took my lunch twice and i've been having snacks all the way..~
~ouh and yar, dat stupid suria...can't even play a show fully and nicely..~
~now i'm doing no0thing and i dun plan to do anything i guess...~
~besides, eating and watching tv....~

a ToUcH sO FiNe
darkness falls @ 4:27 PM